meditation

i am not a thinker. i don't ponder. contemplate. fall asleep wondering about things too complicated for my brain to figure.

i want to be. i want to intelligibly consider new things, focus on more than just what's happening right now. be more aware of why and how i function, my heart, my thought process. i want to be more in tune. deep. thoughtful.

john is. i have friends that are like this.

i think i'm always filling up my mind with other things; not bad, just filler. i do not take the time i should [the time i need] in the Word. i don't listen often enough, hear enough of what my Father says. i rarely take time to consciously think on what is good, true, honorable...

i want to make room, weed out [and i hate weeding] the things i don't need, or need as much of. i want to be changed. experience life differently. heart, mind, and eyes wide - opened.

'may the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart, be pleasing to you, O God.'